Two Way Trust

This morning begins week six of my unemployment. I have resumes in so many places I have lost track of them all. When I woke up, grabbed my coffee, and went to spend time with the Lord, one of my first prayers was asking Him to please let the phone ring today. Please, Lord, give me one interview. He gently reminded me to trust Him and I began my time in His Word. I am doing a study on I Peter, but I am also reading in a chronological Bible. This morning's reading was the book of Job. I've read the book of Job many times, but the beauty of God's Word is that He always brings something fresh from it. So this morning as I read about God giving Satan permission to strike all of Job's possessions, including the lives of His children, I realized something: not only did Job trust God, God trusted Job. When the Lord said to Satan: "have you considered my servant Job..." God knew that Job would continue to trust and serve Him no matter what tragedy he endured. In a good way, it made me feel small. Here I am learning and trying to trust God. I wonder if sometimes the angels laugh at me or shake their heads in disbelief. I imagine them speaking to each other saying "Look at her -trying to trust our good and perfect Father". While trusting the Lord is a good and necessary thing, I think it is more remarkable to become a person who God can trust. In Job 1:20, after Job heard that his children had all been killed, it says he tore his robe and shaved his head. In that day, these were signs of mourning. Of course Job was grieved and devastated to lose all of his children. However, the Bible tells us that he tore his robe, shaved his head, and fell to the ground IN WORSHIP. As I considered this, it began to make more and more sense to me. Job was not expected to be happy about his losses. He did grieve and suffer. However, his grieving and suffering were in response to the circumstances. His response to God was worship - the same worship he gave when everything was good. Verse 22 tells us that in all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing. So now for the application. Yesterday Pastor Kent said in his sermon that if we hear the Word but do not obey (or apply) it, it equals nothing. I do not want my time spent in the Word this morning to amount to nothing so I need to contemplate how to apply this to my life. Last month, when I was hit with several painful losses in a short span of time, I knew better than to charge God with wrongdoing. However, my response was to ask Him why these things occurred. My response was not worship. I have spent these past six weeks learning to trust God more and more and while I do believe that is one of God's purposes for this season of my life, I am faced with a new goal: becoming a person who God can trust.